It amazes me how much we keep growing in our relationship. I wanted to start this blogpost saying that all the sudden we were changing, but then I realize how many times I've started blog posts that way. The great thing about DD, D/s, or whatever it is that we are, is that it's always doing that, changing and growing. The exciting thing is that it probably always will.
My whole life I wanted someone that would be protective of me. I'm protective of so many people, even the Duke, but don't often feel that in my own life. I have a friend that fiercely protects me, but did not feel that from the Duke, and I longed so much to have him want to protect me. I'd be out late here or there, and not be able to get a hold of the Duke, all of me wishing he would worry just enough so that if I needed help, he'd be thinking of how to get to me. But I'd come home, and he'd be surprised I was late, not having realized the time, and hadn't worried a second. Don't get me wrong, I don't want him worry his head off, but knowing I was cared for and important would have been nice.
Well, now, I don't have to wonder.
A month or two ago during that huge storm I showed you guys pictures of, the snow had shadowed the car in such a way that it looked like there was actually someone sitting in our car. I went to go out and check, and before, the Duke would have never thought anything of it, my going out by myself. But this time, he pulled me back inside, told me to stay put, and went and checked himself. There was no one there, but I still felt so safe.
And over the past week I've had several examples. The other night I was going to get money out of the bank. I looked up as we pulled in, and there was this large guy that kind of scared me waiting in line for the machine. The Duke took one look at him and suggested that he go in instead. I was so relieved that I let him. I asked him later what would have happened if I had asked to go in, and he told me he would have either gone in with me, or made me stay in the car like I had already done.
Then the next day I was out doing laundry, and when I went to bring in the clothes, there was a giant wasp on a pair of underwear. I didn't know what to do, and the Duke is not one that likes to deal with bugs. Imagine my surprise when he ordered me inside, and then knocked it down and stomped on it! The Duke! Rescuing me from a bug. :)
And the last thing was the other night. He had a cold, and he was snoring so loudly. Usually if I ask the Duke to turn over, he'll stop snoring, but not so this night. It literally was so loud I couldn't think, and forget sleeping. So by two in the morning, I went out to the futon in our living room. It bothered me to be in the same place, and not sleeping in the same room, but I did not see any way around it if I was going to function in the morning. Well, four in the morning came, the Duke awoke and noticed me gone. He came out to the living room asked why I was there, and then told me he'd be taking the futon and ordered me back to bed. I wouldn't budge, I got a firm smack to the bottom (I was sleeping on my side, facing the back of the futon). He told me again to get to the bedroom. I told him he was sick, and I was not, and he needed a good night's sleep. Three more very hard and heavy smacks to my bottom and a direct order to get my bottom into bed. I went to the bedroom, and found it very hard to sleep in the bed without him. He went right to sleep.
He's taking care of me, and he's protecting me. He's even holding me even closer to him now when we're out, and holding my hand even more firmly. He really doesn't want anything bad to happen to me. I wanted this my whole life, and now that it's here, I'm near tears at times, the way I'm feeling, the way I feel special and important, being almost more than I can handle. I never really thought he'd become protective. I always wanted it, but did not ever see it being something that would happen as we navigated our way through DD.
Oh, DD, all the beautiful surprises you hold for us. I am most excited to see how we'll grow next. :) Some growing pains are painful, ;) but I'm hoping the next growth is beautiful as well.
I hope you're all having a wonderful week, and thank you so much for your understanding in my needing to be away from blogs right now. Annabelle, you asked me to check your blog, but I don't have your blog address, sorry, would you mind emailing it to me? Thank you. :)
- The Duke's Deductions
I feel so good the way EsMay is talking me up here. It's really simple though. Even though I am the dominant one in our relationship, I don't see it as something to use to get my own way at the expense of my spouse. I see it as a way to protect the sub and take care of her by telling her what to do in a situation. I guess in these specific examples she mentioned, it didn't even cross my mind to think about what the best way a good dom would act in these situations. I just immediately felt like doing the things I did in these situations to protect and take care of my wife. I am glad that it is making her feel closer to me.