I thought I'd share about my maintenance a few nights ago... still trying to process it all, and not sure where I am with it. I wasn't expecting maintenace. When my days off changed last week, my husband waited until my days off, so I thought that is how it would be this week. But it wasn't. I hadn't prepared myself. I actually think this is good, it makes me submit more to his will. But I couldn't get into the head space.
And then afterwards, very uncharacteristic for me, I became a bit snarky. Not mean, but just pushing buttons, which I never do. I think it's because I was beyond tired. I couldn't keep my eyes open, I couldn't even stand up straight! My husband told me to go to bed even though it wasn't my bed time, and I kept finding ways to distract him and stay up. But I felt really bad, but yet seemed unable to stop myself. Finally he ordered me to bed, and then watched me get ready for bed to make sure I listened. He came into the bathroom with me, watched me go, brush my teeth, wash my face, followed me to the bedroom to watch me take my meds for my cold, take my vitamins, and after it was all done, he tucked me in and kissed me goodnight. Okay, the being tucked in was awesome. But it did feel weird to have him watching over me get ready for bed.
I think I might have liked it... but I'm still not sure. I feel like when you're trying a vastly different food than you've ever tried before. Texture, taste, temperature, all different than you are used to. So you sit there, roll it over your tongue, try to find out if the taste is appealing, or if you actually really don't like it. So that is me today. I think I liked it... it was nice having the attention, but the feeling that maybe he thought I wouldn't follow through, bothers me a bit. I think I've done something to make him question if I'll listen or not.
Yesterday when leaving for work he double checked with me several times to make sure I'd feed the cats, and then called before he stepped in to work to make sure again. He also asked me several times before I even got out of bed if I'd remember to do the laundry. It's not like him to do this, and so I somehow feel I've missed something he's asked me to do. I'll have to ask him that tomorrow night. I don't want to bring it up tonight and possibly put a dent in on Valentine's Day. If there is something, I'll need him to tell me, because I honestly have no idea what it is.
F.ree E.books - Here are SIX books (must be because it's Vday) that are free today if you'd like to take a look at them, but as always, if you want them for free, you might just want to take a quick look to make sure they still say $0.00. :) Just because prices can change on amazon without notice. I really liked the idea of the first book, it is an intimacy devotional, and it says it even suggests one for the bathtub. LOL I tend to look for mostly Christian books, so the first four of the six are, the last two are normal type books. :) I hope that does not offend anyone, and I'm truly sorry if it does. I really struggled with putting the third book listed in, I kept going to not put it in, but kept feeling I was supposed to. Hope the feeling was right, and not my brain. ;)
As usual, I haven't had time to read these books yet myself as they usually are only free for a day, so I can't vouch for them being good or not, but thought I'd share in case they help anyone out there. :) The last one might help anyone not knowing how to celebrate tonight on a budget, if you plan to celebrate. :)
Songs in the Key of Solomon: In the Word and In the Mood - Anita and John Renfroe
Finding Focus On Relationships - Marcus D. King
Cheer Up Your Wife - Aleathea Dupree (this is the one I was iffy about)
You Can Have A Happy Family: Steps to Enjoying Your Marriage and Children - Amanda Beth, Steven Sawyer, Lisa Lickel
Happily Married With Kids: It's Not a Fairy Tale - Carol Ummel Lindquist Ph.D.
35 Cheap Date Ideas: Creative Ideas For Romance on a Budget