My husband and I talked about a lot of things last week that were DD related. One was that he wanted to know how far his rule was allowed to go. Just chores? Just making improvements in how I live my life? I told him as far as he wanted it to go being led by God. He told me that he was going to take that as rule over my body as well, and asked how I'd feel if he chose to go to me for his pleasure at any time, even if it was the middle of the night. (Please note, I've never withheld intimacy from my husband) I admitted that we can't do this if I work the next day, I literally cannot function if I don't get enough sleep, and not being able to drink coffee, I suffer horribly the whole next day with brain fog, migraines, a body that won't wake up, and so on. But if he wanted to try in the middle of the night when I had the next day off, we could. I told him it wasn't about control not doing it on days I work, but my needing to be able to function. He said he understood, and since it was his job to take care of me, would not push me to do so at the risk of my health.
So imagine my surprise this morning to be woken up and hour and a half before his alarm on my day off! He was showing me with body language alone what he wanted. I was so tired. I just wanted him to go back to sleep, I just wanted to go back to sleep. I was going to tell him so, also reminding him how late he went to bed last night and that he'd be tired today, when something made me stop. I had told him last week that he did have the right to control my life. I told him I would let him lead our marriage in every way, even in taking ownership of my body in ways he never had before. It was not easy waking up. My brain was in a fog for a good ten minutes, but I forced myself to for him. I find it funny, I've never liked to cuddle when falling asleep, but I feel asleep against him afterwards and I really liked it. I am so tired today, even though I was able to get two more hours of sleep. I soon have to attack the house for at least two hours, and do two loads of laundry on top of that, hanging them up to dry. But I'll get it done, because that is my chores for today. That is the right I gave my husband. I feel really put in my place today, and let me tell you, I've so needed that. I belong to him, not only my love and my submission, but also my body for his pleasure. Today I feel really owned, really submissive, really controlled, and I can't believe how much I love that.
I know some of you out there now have rules that you are to be bottomless in bed. Something tells me that rule will soon be mine as well. *GULP*
When I started this blog, I didn't realize there was a blog whose title was so close to what I picked that it is literally only two letters off my whole title. I found it since I started my blog, and have felt sort of bad ever since, I don't want to step on anyone's toes or make anyone get my blog confused with someone else's. What has forced me into motion about this is noticing today that also my blog link is only two letters off of a totally different blog than the one who's title mine is close to. Had I known when I started, I would have been much more considerate because they're both in our AWESOME DD family. :) Have to admit, you all rock. Where would I be without you? (Great, now I have Toby Mac's song running through my head!)
So I've been debating changing the name and url for a bit now, and today decided it needed to be done so that these people can keep their identities separated and not worry about them getting mixed up with newbies like me. :) But I really wanted to make sure first that what I pick doesn't closely sound like someone else's. But I don't know all the DD blog names out there. :) So I thought I 'd show you guys the ones I've been thinking of, and maybe you could let me know if they sound very close to another blog's title or url here in DD Blogland? The url would be the same as the title if possible. I haven't set my heart on any particular one yet because I wanted to make sure first they didn't mimic anyone else's. :) I had a bunch of ideas and whittled them down to these. I'll let you know in advance if I change the name and url so that you have time to adjust your blog rolls, or what have you. I hope this won't cause too much confusion. Though seeing how well a fellow blogger did it this week gives me peace about being able to do this myself. :)
1. Submitting To Be Led (If I had a favourite, this is probably it so far)
2. Being Led Step By Step
3. Giving Up Control
4. Surrendering To His Control
5. Submitting To His Authority
6. Submitting To His Rule