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Saturday, February 23, 2013

Blah

I don't really have anything to share.  I'm just in sort of a funk... and not sure what to do about it. 

I guess most of it's because my husband and I haven't really had any time in a few days to talk to each other.  So tonight when we tried maintenance, I really couldn't connect.  We'd had no time together since Tuesday or Wednesday, and I was feeling the disconnect.  I couldn't get to the submissive state, no matter how much I told myself to, or tried.

He has a friend that has been very needy all the sudden, and wants to spend all his time with my husband, and so that hasn't helped either. :(

I know I'm just being whinny, I hear myself and I CRINGE.  Yikes, who is this woman!?

Hopefully I'll scare her away in the next few days and find my normal, more rational self.  In the mean time, I'm off to get some NEEDED sleep.  Another long day at work tomorrow.  *AUGH*  I so need another day off, and I've only been back for two days!  I'm such a baby. :(

Side note, I didn't lose my voice at work yesterday or today, had moments when it threatened to, but it stayed!  So the meds must be working. :)  Night all.  Sleep well. :)

12 comments:

  1. Hope you continue to feel better and that the blues go away.

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    1. Thank you, Sunny. I hope so too! :)

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  2. Awe ((Hugs)) Es May.

    Sometimes we don't find our submissive self, or get that connection during maintenance. I think the frame of mind we are in at the time has a lot to do with it. Also the fact that you are not 100% and have not had much time together lately.

    I hope you are feeling better soon and that you manage to get some time for the two of you.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. I hope so too, Roz. Right now with our schedules, we get no days off together. So hoping and praying I can get a week day shift next shift bid. :) Yeah, I hope that this agressive form of treatment the doctor gave me finally cures me. :) :) Who knew you could have a cold for over two months, and to this degree??? LOL, only I could pull that off.

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  3. I am sorry you are feeling blah. There is a lot of that going around right now. I'm sure being sick and this lovely Canadian winter that never seems to end is not helping!

    I don't have any sound advice, but try not to concentrate on the blah. Try and pan for gold, and find a nugget and cherish it. Perhaps some small thing to do for your hubby will help you put one step outside of blahville. The next step might come easier!.

    Thinking about you.
    willie

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    1. Thanks, Willie. I will try to do that... I won't lie, doing something for him, just is not something I want to do right now, but that's mostly because I'm so tired. But hopefully I'll get some more energy today and beable to force myself to. :) Yeah, this Canadian winter is crazy!!!! We got about 90cm in the past two weeks! I'm so ready for spring! :)

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  4. Hey Es May...You've been sick and sounds like you still are. Add to that, cold weather, snow, little time with your husband and needy friend equals hard to find any state other than "go away, let me sleep". Take it easy on yourself and concentrate on getting healthy. Hopefully, once you are feeling better, you two can find some alone time to reconnect. Sending healing energy, positive thoughts and lots of prayers your way.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Hehehe, you know, Cat, that's almost what I want to say. LOLL "Go away, let me sleep." LOL so perfectly put. :) And thank you, I will try to be easier on myself... something I need to learn to do better.

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  5. Hugs EsMay it happens to all of us. Breathe and get some sleep. I think tiredness causes funks more than anything.

    Callie

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    1. It would suprise me at all, Callie. Seems to funny that we need so much sleep to function... I mean we already need to eat, shouldn't have to eat AND sleep. ;)

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  6. I hope that you are feeling better really soon. Glad I found your blog. East coast seems to be freezing right now.

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    1. LOL Freezing and burried in snow. We might be here until mid summer. ;) Actually, for all the snow we've gotten... it seems to have all disappeared one night... had to have been fairies! ;)

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