Sorry, bit of a longer post than normal, probably will take 3-5 minutes to read.
For about two months now my right shoulder has really been bothering me. I had thought all along it was the muscles going across the top of my shoulder that stretch to my neck. But last night, when working out, it was actually in the joint of the shoulder that really hurt. At one point I could no longer even rotate the shoulder.
Now, imagine my shock when the Duke looked at me and said I needed to stop. :( I was still doing the workout for about a minute without using that one shoulder, but he said to stop. I was disappointed. I want to lose weight, I can't be skipping parts of my workout. I thought I could just ignore the shoulder. So a minute later came the last exercise in the video, only about 2 minutes until the end, so when it came I thought he'd let me do it since it wasn't rotating my shoulder. I started getting into position, and was told "No" again. I was even more shocked. I seriously thought he only meant for me to stop doing the one exercise that caused me pain.
He let me know that he doesn't want me to be in pain, and he does not want to risk causing damage. I was disappointed at first, and won't lie, this morning I am a bit disappointed still. I have been doing really good at keeping up with my exercises up til that point. I want to do good at this, I want you all to be proud of me, I want to be proud of me, and I want the Duke to be proud of me. I know he was only looking out for my best interest, but a part of me also felt like he was keeping me from my goal.
After that feeling passed though, I felt great relief. I was in a LOT of pain in my shoulder, and it wasn't me that quit. I didn't stop, I kept going, pushing myself. I can be proud of that. I can also be proud that I was even exercising at all for it to hurt. Had I not started this challenge, I wouldn't have even been exercising last night probably. And I can be proud of the fact that I listened to the Duke, and I can be proud in him that he stepped in when he had to. Yes, I wanted to keep going, but because he stepped in, it may have kept me from hurting myself more, and I can take the blame off my shoulders for cutting my routine short by 2-3 minutes because it wasn't me that said to stop. :)
The good news about this week as well is my apartment! And that in itself has been a fully body workout! :) I got quite behind since being sick. Not horribly, but I just had clutter piles to deal with, clothes folded but not put away, bathroom needing a good scrub down, getting rid of other clutter that I've had for a while. I just have too much of some stuff and have to figure out what of it I can give away.
I love my parents, but they were hoarders. When I was younger it was not quite as bad as you see on the show, but every year it got worse, last time I saw it, it was as bad as the show. I have not been home in 11 1/2 years because my dad is worried about my safety on my mother's turf, but I hear it's gotten worse since then. Now, coming into my house you'd never know I struggle hoarder tendencies, but I really do because of how I was brought up. I have to force myself twice a year to go through and get rid of the excess I may have accumulated. Most of this is not bought, thank goodness, but given to me. And every year I get better at giving stuff away. My house is NOT where I want it clutter wise, but it is sooooo much better than it was five years ago, each year I learn to give more and more away. I'd say in the next declutter or two I'll have gotten the skills to get it right where I want it. :) And even now, is not bad at all, just more than I want.
My main rule in decluttering is this "Have you used it in the past 6 months? If not, do you REALLY see yourself using it again?" I used to say in the past two years, but now I don't even do that unless it's a holiday/seasonal item. And you know what? I usually never miss what I got rid of. Once in a rare while I will miss one thing, but only for a minute.
And when shopping now, I have some rules that REALLY help me.
1. I learned on a show once that you should never spend money on something that you got to enjoy less hours than it took you to work for it. ie, if it took you 5 hours to get $50, and it costs you $50 to enjoy a toy for 2 hours, it's not worth, but if it took you 5 hours to get $50, and you bought a toy you could enjoy for 20 hours, then it would probably be worth your money. So now I double, triple, and at times 10x this rule. I only spend money on something I can get at least double to 10x the time of enjoyment verses time it took to earn the money.
2. I think while looking at the item "Do you really need this? You want it, but once it's home, will you actually EVER use it, or will it sit on a shelf or in a bag until you just end up giving it away later?"
3. If I'm still really wanting it, I walk away and go looking around the store, if at the end of my looking around, I still want it, and it's passed the two previous rules, then I'll get it. There have been times when I get to the cash, and turn around and take it back. I've never regretted not buying something to my recollection, but I have regretted many times buying something too quickly.
Adding these three rules to my shopping life has saved me so much money! Saved me so much guilt. Saved me SOOOO much clutter! :)
So anyway, I'm catching up on doing house work, probably why my shoulder is sore, put up and took down laundry for the past two days, and the line is WAY over my head, tip toes and stretching over my head high. But my house looks much better, the Duke is proud of me, and I was not embarrassed last night when company dropped by. Oh my goodness, if I hadn't cleaned some over the last two days, YIKES, I would have freaked! This is the main reason the Duke is glad it's clean. :) He hates seeing me frazzled.
My parents come on Friday for the weekend. This is part of the reason I want clean besides the fact that I like it clean. I always try to show them how much fun, how relaxing it can be in a clean space. They're moving to a smaller place now, and trying to learn how to declutter themselves, and Dad has actually been asking me for some tips, so I'm hoping that while they relax here, they can understand that having all the excess just isn't peaceful.
Anyway, off to see what I can do today with my shoulder now hating me. :( Thankfully only the bedroom is left, and that is only putting clothes away! Then I can rest until supper needs to be made. I will be able to do today's exercises because they do not require me to over rotate my arm. :) The clothes on the line today though... might have to get the Duke to take down for me so that my arm is ready to use again with the videos tomorrow. 0.1kg gain since Monday.... grrrr. lol *it's muscle... it's muscle... it's muscle* right? lol Hopefully the Duke will not stop any other workouts, hopefully he won't need to.