Last night did NOT go as planned.
I had to drive a friend this morning to a visit, and so I had to leave the house no later than 7:45am. So the Duke and I agreed that I'd have to be in bed by 10:45pm last night. I was already. I was crawling into bed. I was settling down, and then I remembered that for my new job, I had to have something done. Augh. But in order to do it, I had to have email addresses from my last three employers. I have addresses, I have phone numbers, but I do not have email addresses for them. So I was able to find one email address, one boss got back to me, and the other I have not heard from yet. Yet, the email says I have only two days to get the info, and then take my ID's down to the post office for verification for a criminal record check. Yet, I can't get the info for the check until I had the emails. The email I got Thursday night from the company I will work for said I only had two days to get everything done.
So here I was last night, knowing I had to get it done last night as there was no way I'd have had time this morning to do it, trying to get things done when I needed to be in bed. One thing kept frustrating me after another. I had to fudge an email address, letting them know what I had for contact info, and that I'd get her email as soon as possible. I still haven't gotten a hold of her. :( It took over half an hour, because the pages kept blanking out info I put in, kept back tracking, pages closing without me telling them to, and I was so not in a good mood along with being tired. At one point of frustration the Duke told me to calm down, and thank goodness he did, because if he hadn't, I probably would have flown, but still, I was cranky.
Well, once everything was done and ready to be checked today at the post office I got a spanking for everything. I was spanked for a bad attitude, putting things off, and for not being in bed when we'd agreed. He also lectured me about how it wasn't his fault, or the cats, that I was in a bad mood, and when I yelled around the apartment, they were the ones that had to take my wrath. :( I told him that he had kept me from loosing my cool. And I was told that this was just a reminder to think about next time I am angry. We also talked about how I couldn't really move forward without the other email address, and really couldn't have come up with a way that would have been better. I would have done it early had I had the information. And for the last hour before bed I was doing other stuff and so forgot all about it until my head hit the pillow. I do realize now I should have had something to remind me to do it at least an hour before bed had I had my other boss' email or not.
Because it was so late, and he wanted me in bed, this was not a long spanking that he gave me, only 15-20 hard swats I'd say, but still, I needed it. He also asked me a question, but I didn't register it, and so I got a few more swats, each one harder than the last until I realized he expected an answer. He's never done that before, so it really did take me by surprise, and it took the third smack for me to realize what he wanted me to do. Yep, I'm either that stupid, or was that tired. ;)
Today was good, was really busy, but everything was right between us. It's not always so the next day if I get frustrated, because there is that thing in the air, that things are unsettled, that I crossed a line I can't as easily go back over, I rang that bell that can't be unrung. But because he kept me in line, and then corrected me, I had nothing left today to try to fix. I had nothing today I had to make up for, or apologize for. There was no guilt weighing me down. I hadn't said things that would make the Duke question his worth, or question whether or not he could do things right in our marriage. It was great that we got to avoid all that! Thank goodness for DD. It surprises me all the ways it's changing us. Thank goodness!
Btw, while taking my friend to her visit we talked. She is the friend I talk about sometimes that I really wish I could tell about DD, but can't. She's noticed him stepping up, telling me to do things, and she's so proud of him! LOL If she only knew about the spankings, I think she's punch him in the face! So, KEEPING that quiet! But glad she's proud of all the rest he's doing. :) She does say I need to be taken care of, and is very glad he's doing that. She's so funny... so odd to be so against the idea of DD, yet loves that he's leading me and telling me what to do. Go figure.
Now off to bed tonight before I get into more trouble!