I am SOOO not in a submissive mood today. :(
I am sick. On Tuesday I started getting a really bad sore throat. I took some advice, and the throat is less sore, but I'm more sick. Come to find out, it's allergies, one of my pollen triggers is high/severe right now. They've never been this bad. My throat hurts a lot less now, but it's still raw, my glands are so swollen that my neck is all thick and really hurts, like the muscles have been pulled. My sinuses are full and hurt, my lungs are raspy, and I am frozen solid. Two layers of pants, two shirts, two sweaters, and my husband sits around in a tshirt or tank top!
So, today I should be cleaning. I should be studying for the test I have in training today (okay, I will get to that) and I should be exercising, I should be eating healthy.
Cleaning and chores, are out the window. I don't want to. I don't want to move. My husband brought home sugar donuts yesterday. We never have them. What did I eat for breakfast? Two! Yeah, so I'm not on my diet either. I just want to sit and be miserable. So even the thought of making breakfast was too much. I could have had milk and cereal, but thought the milk would make my throat worse.
Why can't I find my submissive side? Cleaning would only take about 30 minutes. It would be less if I'd done it yesterday, but I felt this crummy then too.
What do you do when you'd rather just not do the things you're supposed to? How do you find the motivation to get up and go? I really just want to go back to bed, and not face the fact that in less than two hours I'll be working, and soon into my shift will be having a test. I just want to find a rock to crawl under and hide, and sleep! :) Submission, where are you HIDING???
** UPDATE - Got 100% on my test! Whew, I was so worried, that with being sick I broke down for a few seconds with the Duke, just being overwhelmed. So glad it was much easier than they portrayed! :)