I am going to reply to the comments left on my last post... I just feel I need to think a bit before I do, to make sure I'm in a good headspace, which, right now, I am not.
I feel all confined, restricted, and tense. Our guest is still here. I felt close to tears yesterday, and thank goodness the Duke took some time to be alone with me.
Yesterday was meant to be something special for the Duke and I, and I feel it got a bit tarnished with our landlord being here. He was having a yardsale in the back yard to get rid of a lot of stuff he'd stashed in the garage. Honestly, I think he's going to be selling the place, and just isn't telling us. So yesterday afternoon we had some alone time, and I thought he was at the back of the property running his yard sale.
Anyway, so a few weeks ago we placed an order for some things from a toy shop, no, this post will not be risque, or not really, lol, and one thing we ordered was a blind fold because the one I have slips off through the night when I need to wear it. It was supposed to just be this innocent blindfold to keep the light from hitting my eyes before I'm ready to get up in the morning. It was eight dollars on sale for one dollar, I felt I couldn't go wrong. Well, imagine the Duke's expressive delight when we get the package and he finds out that there isn't only a blindfold in our package, but a matching thong! And not just a thong, but one that fit my larger frame. I had no idea, and was shocked speechless.
So, he expressed a wish a few days later that I maybe get a few to wear for him as the one that was mailed to us was quite stiff and not that great. I've never worn thongs before, I was apprehensive, but then thought about it. I've started to wear dresses at home for the Duke, why not try this for him. So on Friday night I went out and bought some. I had avoided wearing dresses all week because of our visitor, but yesterday decided that was enough.
So I put on a dress, and my new under garment, and showed the Duke. He was so honoured that I would do this for him, you could see the emotions playing over his face that I bowed to his wishes in this way. A few hours later we both ended up in our bedroom, I was on the laptop, he was grabbing something from his dresser. I joked that I wasn't used to something riding up my butt, and we joked about it for a minute, as well as him sharing how special it was to him that I did this. Just as we finished joking about it, we decided to open the window to our bedroom. The Duke pulled open the curtains to reveal the window was already open, all the way open, and he stopped cold.
Standing right outside our window, and I mean RIGHT outside, was our landlord typing away on his IPAD. Seriously, the man has to go! The Duke signaled for me to be quiet, and then mouthed what he saw. This is not the first time we've caught him outside our window while we've been talking, but this was by far the most intimate thing I know he's heard. This was a gift for the Duke, I did this to please him and be a special treat between the two of us. Now I feel our landlord knows our secret as well, and I feel all tarnished, and that my gift to the Duke is now less special.
I realize the Duke is stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am also glad to hear from the Duke how much he is displeased with his friend lately. Now that I'm giving him more respect and forcing him to understand my love is unconditional, and not letting him think otherwise, he's starting to see how bad this guy treats him. I was so thankful to hear that. He's ready for this guy to be gone too. I know he's reluctant to say something because the guy is apparently leaving today, and we know he can be quite vindictive and manipulative, so I understand the Duke's reluctance to cause an issue. Our landlords always been like that, and it was why I was so reluctant to move here in the first place. I do understand that if the Duke were to call him on it, he could make life very hard for us, but I also don't mind moving to be honest.
I will not be dressing up today until after our landlord is gone. I don't want him knowing what I'm wearing underneath. It's none of his business. I hope that I can get the special feeling back about why I'm doing this for the Duke, and make the present I'm giving him special again.
Am I making too much out of this? Or is this creepy to anyone else?