A Needed Bedtime Spanking

Last night I was in desperate need of a spanking, the Duke had suggested a maintenance spanking in the afternoon, we're trying to do two a week right now, but I asked him to wait until today.  He's been quite sick with a cold, and I didn't want to wear him out.

Then last night we went babysitting, and I had a baby crying for hours because of gas, and it was a bit hard by the end, and of course, she fell asleep only as her parents were coming into the driveway, I am so not kidding about that.  And usually this wouldn't bother me, babies cry, I know this and have looked after several that cried for hours, but I was also getting sick, and PMSing, and had had a very long week.  I just didn't have any energy left, and I was all frazzled.

So when we got home the Duke went straight to bed.  I stayed up to unwind as I had a headache after everything.  But the Duke knew I was off, and he kept checking on me.  Finally he said he thought maybe I should go to bed.  The funny thing was, I was writing a post to you all about how much I needed a spanking, but not just a maintenance or role affirmation spanking, but more along the lines of a punishment spanking.  You know, Missy wrote about something like this this week, and I didn't quite understand.  But now I do.

Well, when I didn't come to bed when he suggested it, he got out the paddle.  As much as I wanted one, I also freaked when the paddle came out.  I told him that he'd only suggested that I go to bed, he hadn't asked or told me to.  I hadn't said no or been defiant.  I had simply said I was still a bit too wound up to sleep, we had not been home for very long.  But over his lap I went.

Did I deserve to be there for disobedience?  No, and we both knew that.  But he also saw how frazzled I was, and emotionally spent, and knew I needed the release of a spanking.  As soon as I was over his lap, I realized how tired I was, I was flat out exhausted, and it took everything in me not to fall asleep the second I was laying over his legs.  He spanked hard and fast, and talked to me throughout, which I really needed.  I was crying in seconds.  Not bawling, or sobs, but just a soft cry, releasing everything.

Afterwards he just let me lay across his lap while he scratched my back, which I love having him do, but he's never done after a spanking.  Then we went to bed, and finally, I was unwound.

He told me that I should have admitted when he suggested a maintenance earlier in the day that I needed it.  I told him that in my heart I knew I needed one, but I also knew in my head that he needed to rest, and really would have waited until today.  He didn't see my point until sometime today, but he does see now that my request was not selfish.  I really was trying to look out for him in this... something I can tell is not going to go over well if I ever try again.

Oh, and the Duke said I should change my slogan since the Duke was more associated with driving a wagon than a car. ;)  So it now says reins instead of wheel. :)  And that reminded me that one day I got bored and made a bunch of hats as joke HOH hats... I think Roz is the only one that ever saw them, anyway, I remembered one was a cowboy hat, so I just had to try it out.  LOL  Does it look too Hickish?

Hope you all have a good week.  I've been working on a few posts, and will try to put one or two of them out this week.  Just some self reflection, and some things I'm learning about submission.

PS, you can ignore the question about the hat, the Duke just found out what I wrote, but he says he really likes it, so either way, I guess I'll be keeping it. ;)