tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post9216108901366409695..comments2023-06-13T11:57:48.024-03:00Comments on Submitting To Be Led: Holding Back?Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-85512449150108524092013-04-14T23:51:09.601-03:002013-04-14T23:51:09.601-03:00Thank you... you are right... in the end, I did te...Thank you... you are right... in the end, I did tell the Duke, and that is what mattered. I guess I didn't look at that silver lining. If I meant to test him, I didn't do a good job. LOL He just listened to my answer as if that was exactly when I planned to tell him. hehehe. Though, once he reads this blog post... then he'll know! *GULP* Soooo, how BAD would it be to take this down before he sees it???? ;)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-54022927411708818782013-04-14T23:48:51.883-03:002013-04-14T23:48:51.883-03:00HEhehe, no idea, huh? ;) And you're right, it...HEhehe, no idea, huh? ;) And you're right, it is crazy stuff. I'm going through things I never expected. I've always wanted him to take the lead, I've always wanted to be submissive, all my friends knew this long before we found DD, though we don't tell them about DD. But now... that day I really didn't want him to be in charge... I wanted to be... so not what I ever expected. Hmmm, maybe I can blame it on PMS, even though that's not showing to be the case! LOLEs Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-66108389333006553972013-04-14T23:46:13.326-03:002013-04-14T23:46:13.326-03:00I hope you'll be able to tell him soon. Not f...I hope you'll be able to tell him soon. Not for him, but from the freedom it will give you to be honest. :) I know it was eating at me until I admitted about my day. Even though it was small, it made a big difference in how the rest of our day went to be open. {{{HUGS}}} And I had a great visit with my parents, thank you. :)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-17180706210680194412013-04-14T23:44:23.463-03:002013-04-14T23:44:23.463-03:00Hi there, Roz. That is a rule I wonder about havin...Hi there, Roz. That is a rule I wonder about having. The only problem is, it is VERY rare for the Duke to tell me no on buying something. I don't know if that's because I don't ask for much, or because he has no idea if we should be buying it or not. hehehe But I have definitely been trying to check in with him a whole lot more before I do buy things, which has surprised me, that is, until this day as mentioned in the post. Guess I do still have a bit to go on working on this. But I do promise to try not to over analyze it. ;) I do tend to do that, and need to relax a bit. {{{HUGS}}} to you too. :)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-13363203748483419762013-04-14T23:39:37.305-03:002013-04-14T23:39:37.305-03:00Well Bea, I'm glad I'm not totally alone i...Well Bea, I'm glad I'm not totally alone in this then. :) Does make me feel a bit more normal. :) If I find the solution, I will DEFINITELY pass it along. ;)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-83943328426049315452013-04-14T23:38:30.735-03:002013-04-14T23:38:30.735-03:00Hello Kim. Thank you for dropping by. :) Oh, I a...Hello Kim. Thank you for dropping by. :) Oh, I am so excited about the roaster. We are thinking about trying it out this week! Just for no reason, hehehe. :)<br /><br />That is a good thought, the more I go into DD, the more I give of myself. I did kind of feel like it was none of his business to know what I was doing. Oh boy, more to process. ;) Thank you though, this is something I really should look at.Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-51654805395636351262013-04-14T23:36:35.124-03:002013-04-14T23:36:35.124-03:00You guys could be right. Thankfully nothing like ...You guys could be right. Thankfully nothing like that has come up again over the past few days... then again we have been really busy, constantly together, and constantly with family. ;)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-55783008273647103672013-04-14T23:35:46.441-03:002013-04-14T23:35:46.441-03:00That makes sense. The "If he can, I can"...That makes sense. The "If he can, I can" statement. I'll have to give that some thought. Thankfully things have been good the last few days, hope they stay that way. :) And thank you, I had a good time with my parents, better than I expected. :)Es Mayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15862166523815621955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-19473441338189382802013-04-14T23:10:32.193-03:002013-04-14T23:10:32.193-03:00You know my post from a few days ago where I talk ...You know my post from a few days ago where I talk about slamming stuff around, and beating up my dishwasher? Prior to ttwd I didn't do that. Honestly. I was just quiet and brewed until the flame 'fizzled' out. My point? I don't have one..LOL. Just that our emotions are all over the map. Our brains trying to be introspective and figure stuff out until we go mad. I have done a few more 'bizarre' and out of character things these past couple of weeks. Just relax, the answers will come to you, or maybe they won't this time. The important thing here is that you did share with Duke !<br /><br />My 'textbook' answer would be that you wanted to be in control,test Duke by doing it, and then waiting to tell him about it to see what he would say. HOWEVER, I have no clue.<br /><br />Okay, so not helpful, I'll admit :)<br />love,williewilliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01907855123777628267noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-40114106112676785782013-04-14T18:54:04.545-03:002013-04-14T18:54:04.545-03:00Never! I have no idea what you are talking about.....Never! I have no idea what you are talking about....okay....well, maybe once or twice. ;)<br /><br />When I first started trying to be submissive, I would have the overwhelming feeling he was winning, I think that was mostly do to our dynamic before ttwd. Now, if he threatens a spanking, that never happens I go nuts and I cannot seem to control it. The strangest part of that is I thought, even said, that would NEVER bother ME. Well it does and I can't explain why. The other time I notice it being very hard is during PMS. <br /><br />It's crazy stuff huh?Betsyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16797556126429403439noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-88317779478789669632013-04-14T08:47:11.382-03:002013-04-14T08:47:11.382-03:00I did this the other day. Went to lunch with my bf...I did this the other day. Went to lunch with my bf and didn't tell him. why? Not the same answer as some others but still just as bad. He works hard all day. Up at 5. Teaching all day long. And I was at lunch and shopping? It mad we me feel badly so I didn't tell him. Still haven't. Anyway, I hope you have fun with your dad because I don't have much advise to give you. Ugh. Sorry. Hang in there. <br /><br />M.maryannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14039657944100565917noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-82059624451141484152013-04-13T21:53:13.482-03:002013-04-13T21:53:13.482-03:00Hi Es May, firstly, don't try to over analyze ...Hi Es May, firstly, don't try to over analyze this too much. I agree with the others, perhaps you were feeling this way because you felt as though he wasn't doing what he was 'supposed' to be doing. The roaster was a gift. You purchased it with money that had been gifted to you and had good reason being at such a good price.<br /><br />I can also relate to this because I have to check ANY spending, no matter the amount with Rick before I spend it. That can be difficult at times, depending on the circumstances. If circumstances mean I can't really check with him first, I usually go ahead and then tell him and he is ok with it .. provided I haven't gone overboard that is!<br /><br />Hugs,<br />RozRozhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14326826956049047973noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-83606525965334784692013-04-13T21:20:47.290-03:002013-04-13T21:20:47.290-03:00I know what you mean. It happens to me whenever I ...I know what you mean. It happens to me whenever I feel rebellious. I can talk myself into all kinds of stuff and as soon as I tell Wes and get it right with him I wonder what the heck I was thinking. If you figure out a way to skip the part where I go ahead and do what I shouldn't let me know.<br />BeaBeahttp://en.gravatar.com/mybeahindnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-69215552498437677642013-04-13T17:21:29.375-03:002013-04-13T17:21:29.375-03:00Hi- just found your blog and look forward to readi...Hi- just found your blog and look forward to reading! I know what you mean about the roaster freeing up the oven... I'll have to look for one on sale. :)<br /><br />I know that since we've started DD that I'm feeling much more open and vulnerable with all the additional communication we've been doing. Maybe you needing to be able to spend a little money without telling Duke is your way of maintaining a sense of "self" since everything else is so out in the open between you two. Just thought I'd throw my 2 cents in, for what's it's worth. :)Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14157634787290693634noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-84102561652272105352013-04-13T15:27:59.263-03:002013-04-13T15:27:59.263-03:00I'm with Missy. Maybe you felt like since he w...I'm with Missy. Maybe you felt like since he wasn't doing what he is "supposed" to do, neither should you?!<br /><br />Have a nice visit with your family :)<br /><br />Hugs,<br />TriciaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5879991995070741632.post-45249215357659544512013-04-13T13:49:11.794-03:002013-04-13T13:49:11.794-03:00Hi honey
I can't really tell you why you felt...Hi honey<br /><br />I can't really tell you why you felt that way, maybe just a bit of frustration maybe, or even wanting to get even in a way because he wasn't stepping up ??? Sorry best I've got. Sometimes when I'm angry or frustrated I feel like going against a rule, sort of like if he can I can if that makes senes. <br /><br />Anyway it's all done and it the past, I hope you enjoy your time with your dad xAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com