Submission and Neediness

Many of you have been here.  Many of you know that sometimes submission and neediness go hand in hand.  And right now, I'm there.

The Duke has majorly stepped up in the past few weeks, and that has in turn caused my submission to grow by leaps and bounds.  At the same time, it's created this huge neediness in me.  Almost all encompassing at times.  This need and deep desire to please him, to do things to help him, to obey him, to be around him, to hear him say "Good Girl", to make him proud, to have his time when he can give it, to feel his arms around me, to feel him pleasing me physically because he wills it or demands it.  Just this need to be more his.

I sit here, while he's at work, with this yearning for him to be home, to be here, with me.  To sit and cuddle, to have him give me a command, and have to obey it.  I even would beg for a hard spanking right now if it meant he could be here for the day.  And as much as I'm uncomfortable at times with my neediness, fearing of coming across as pathetic, or being rejected, I love it too.  I feel in love with him in a way I haven't in a long while.  I feel giddy thinking of when he'll get home, and excited when he all the sudden touches me, even if it's the most innocent of touches.  I long for when he holds my face firmly in his hands so that he can tell me something important or make sure I take a command seriously, I long for the next time he grabs my neck firmly (usually the back) and just holds me in place because he knows that my whole body and mind submit to him in that moment, it's a very heady feeling. 

I just... need his strength, his care, his control, his will over mine.  I love when that happens.

So here I am, submissive as ever, and needy. :)  In a good way.

And thank you, everyone, for all the anniversary wishes. :)  They meant so much. :)  I don't know if you know that, but I try to make sure to reply to every comment I get.  Sometimes I get a few days behind, but I always try to respond because the fact that you write a comment to me means so much to me.  Thank you.