Wednesday, August 08, 2018

The Dom in Naked Kneeling

I wrote this last night, but waited for the Duke to write, and fell asleep before he finished. ;)

So, tonight was the second night we did naked kneeling.  The first night was on Sunday before my punishment, which I do promise to write about.  Hopefully on Friday. :)

So, today, the Duke walked into our room, he worked a late shift, and I had literally only sat down a minute before he got home.  I was tired.  I had got a jolt from unplugging our dryer today, and made a mistake and touched two of the prongs trying to get a better grip because it just wasn't coming from the electrical outlet.  My thumb and forefinger, as well as my arm to my shoulder, hurt most of the day after.  I was having a hard time with a migraine from the pressure change from a thunderstorm.  I decided to tackle some hotspots (areas that attract a LOT of clutter) in our home, and I got four done of the six I had aimed for.  Add to that I only got 3 hours of sleep, and I was very tired.

I have daily rules now.  A load of laundry a day.  15 minutes of cleaning besides what the kids mess up.  10k steps a day, etc.  There are 6 rules I believe.  I didn't get the 10k in, I only got 7k.  He came in and quite seriously told me to strip, and I started crying.  I was afraid I was going to get punished for being 3k away from my goal, and I told him I'd still do it, my lip quivering.  Still, all he said was for me to strip.  I did, tears falling from my eyes by this point because I was so tired and felt like I'd failed.

Once I was naked, he had me kneel, and my head naturally dropped forward. 
The Duke grabbed my chin and made me look at him.  "I love you."
I couldn't look, I had to look down.
"Look at me."  Another tug to my chin.  "I love you."
"I know."  My eyes dropped AGAIN.
Another tug to my chin.  "I'm not angry with you, I'm very proud of how much you did today."

I was so relieved.  The tears took a minute to stop, I had really been afraid of how upset he'd be.  He never gets upset, but he's never looked so in control before either.  We spent about ten minutes talking, he sat on the bed so I didn't have to look up so high.  He's 3/4 of a foot taller than me, so kneeling and looking up was doing a number on my neck.  I'm officially old. :P

Then I teased and asked why I was naked, and he was fully dressed.  And then he did something I don't think he's ever done before.  He went full on Dom.  His eyes literally darkened, his face hardened, he was intense, in control, and expected my obedience.  "Because, this is how we agreed things would be."

Insert very large gulp, along with trying not to laugh, because, let's be honest, I'd never seen this side of him and didn't even know he was capable of it.  So once I swallowed down the laugh, I lowered my head, and admitted he was right.

Um... apparently I was submissive in that moment in a way I never was before, because the next thing I knew, he ran, yes, RAN around the other side of the bed, and demanded I please him because my submission was turning him on so much.

Hmmmm.  Kind of nice to see such a grown man powerless against my charms.  (Insert giant laugh here.)  This naked kneeling thing may just be full of more surprises to come.  :)

I asked if the Duke would like to share on this post, and the next one I do about the punishment spanking I had on Sunday.  He said he would. :)

The Duke's Deductions:
Yes I thought we would try this as a submission exercise. We had already incorporated the nightly review where we could talk about what happened that day. I thought that had been a good step towards making DD a bigger part of our lives, to be more conscious of it, to make sure it was being practiced every day. But it seemed like it could go a step further, to better highlight the Dominance and Submission aspect of it, so it wasn't just something a typical vanilla couple might do each night. I had heard before of submissive wives kneeling while their husbands instructed them, or of waiting naked for their husbands and things like that. So I thought we could combine the kneeling and the nudity with the nightly talks we were already doing. I think it is a turn on to have her naked and in that submissive position, and I think it helps get her in the right frame of mind for answering my questions. It gets me in the right frame of mind for asking them. And the look she gave me, and the sound of her voice, when she thought she was going to get punished, but still did what I asked anyway, that made me feel dominant, like I wasn't just pretending but really had this relationship to her.




9 comments:

  1. I am sitting here smiling, with tears in my eyes, and so very happy for the two of you. That is a giant step...to be honest my submission has waned lately for..oh so many reasons...most out of our control, a bad back, family and friends needing us, work issues for M....the list goes on...but this post has given me hope...thanks for sharing, both of you...hugs abby

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    1. OH, abby, you almost have me in tears too. I'm so glad it gave you hope. We definitely were in a desert submission and dominance wise a bit ago. Even our marriage was in a desert. It feels so good to be here.
      Hugs, EsMay

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  2. Something I have observed not only with myself but my friends over the years....When we first start with ttwd you will hear over and over again that your submission feeds his dominance ( if you are the one bringing it basically you have to BRING it..LOL), but over time, and perhaps over many restarts the tables turn or at the very least shift every so slightly. It appears that the subs need the dominance to start the ball rolling again. For some it doesn't have to be a grandiose gesture, just something that touches their core, and allows that authentic submissive vibe to be released without thought or reservation. That will (hopefully) in turn put oxygen into the dominant fire, no matter how small, that has been lit.

    Regardless it is a wonderful time between twp partners when the power exchange can be truly felt- enjoy it

    willie

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    1. I do find that too, Willie. :) I find that no matter where we are in our marriage, if I can start finding ways to be submissive, it helps. Him being dominant right now, is definitely help feed the submissiveness in a way I can't find on my own. :)

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  3. such love and such commitment! thank you for that lovely snapshot and peek into your lives. *hugs*

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    1. You're welcome. :) And I definitely do love that man.
      Hugs, EsMay

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  4. Hi EsMay, gosh, it sounds like you had had a rough day, It's no wonder you were initially upset.

    What a wonderful and important moment between you, and I love how the Duke reassured you. There is nothing like being naked and kneeling while he ra mains clothed to make us feel both submissive and vulnerable, and yes, a turn on for both :) Rick used to say it was my vulnerability that turned him on.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. I guess our men must be a bit the same then on what turns them on. LOL It really was special, and I felt so loved. :)
      Hugs, EsMay

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  5. Love the idea of the naked kneeling. My Sir and I have a very similar height difference.

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