Monday, May 21, 2018

Better This Week :)

You'll be glad, this post is pretty short. :)

Thank you, everyone, for writing last week.  You are an amazing group of people, and were just the encouragement that I needed.  Seriously, you know how to make a girl feel loved.

So, my birthday is this month, I hit the big 40.  EEEEEEK!  Which isn't that big a deal to me, except it marks the end of having children.  Having only one that lived, I had hoped to let them have siblings, but oh well.  I have many friends wand siblings with young children, and they often play together.  So I am blessed by that.

So, for my birthday, I had money given to me early, and I bought two things.  One is a set of writing books I've been drooling over.  I have been writing DD books since 2012, and never brave enough to actually publish any.  So, armed with writing advice from several blogs I've been reading, essays, and the like on how to be a good writer, and now armed with these new books, I'm trying to get a book I started in 2012 that was only half written, though the scenes mostly sketched out, ready for publishing.  It might totally suck, I don't know... but I'm going to try.  Freaking out nervous, it's a story I have day dreamt over and over for the past six years, and to put it out there for people to share in my daydream, is a bit scary.

The other thing I bought was some things at pinkcherry.ca. :)  They are having a 40% off sale, so I got about $90 in stuff for only $52 plus taxes.  I got one especially that I think the Duke will like, though he'll like them all.  :P  But there is one especially that I hope he'll like. :)

Other than that, things are going better.  The Duke and I will finally get a date this afternoon, haven't had one of those in a while.  I PMSed this weekend, and the Duke chased me into the kitchen when I was having a fit, and let me tell you, he wasn't putting up with it.  My hands were pinned, I was immobile, and he was literally in my face telling me to CALM DOWN.  And of course, as the timid, quiet, shy, obedient, submissive, and always compliant girl that you know me to be, I gave in without on little bit of resistance.  I did "not" get upset, or up in his face, or physically fight his hold on me until I saw how serious he was.  No, no, no, not me.  *whistling innocently*  Okay, so he had to help me calm down.  *SIGH*  But I'm glad he did, because when he does, when he cuts my monthly tantrum off at the knees, I have nothing to apologize for later.  I am so thankful he's stepping up and doing that for me again.  It makes me feel loved, and like I am worth his time.

So that is my week, aside from work and family stuff.  lol  How are you all this week?

16 comments:

  1. I am so glad to read this, I have been thinking about you. Happy, happy birthday, trust me, you are still a young lady....love your birthday gifts. And HURRAH for you with the writing. My mom, who was very wise..always said, everyone needs to find something they do just for themselves...this is YOUR something. I am also excited for us ....another author to supply us with books in our midst:). Have a much better week, my friend. hugs abby

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    1. Thank you. And it is just for me, I love writing, I love making my characters do the things my mind plays out. Even if I never get the guts to publish, I still love my stories. :) Hugs EsMay

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  2. Happy Birthday, EsMay! ... I'm guessing 40 spanks minimum are in the cards ... altho' Amy might have upped the ante!

    Enjoy your presents and thanks for the new to me Canadian shopping link. I may have to do some shopping myself in preparation for an upcoming anniversary :))

    Hugs ... Good to have you back ... nj

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    1. I love that site, like... too much. LOL I should have taken out stock in the company! lol The sale is on all day today. :) And thank you... um, I showed the Duke the 40 swats, but DID NOT say we should. :P Especially if we take up the 100 spank challenge as well. LOL Hugs EsMay

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    2. I caught the sale ... thank-you!! ... nj

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    3. Good for you Esmay! A man stepping up during PMS week is soooo helpful, so good for you Duke.

      Welcome, almost to my decade. Lol. Sex in your 40s is pretty fantastic. My friend refers to this decade as Fortytude. PMS in your 40s.. Well....let's just say I hope Duke is up for more kitchen chases .lol

      Side note Nj- Pink Cherry always has good sales. Or coupons if you Google . To our American friends they have a US site too. There is also another site, based out West, called Hush. They also sell implements. If you buy a neoprene cane, don't blame me!!!

      Here's hoping June brings you as much happiness as daylight - I love June!!!

      willie

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    4. NoraJean, I'm so glad you caught the sale. :) As Willie said, they do have sales often. :) We love that site.

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    5. Willie, May is usually my month, but it was soooo cold this year, and already allergies are driving me crazy. So I'm hoping June is good. :)

      Since sex in my late thirties has become phenomenal, I can't wait to see what forties is like! :) I'll try to warn the Duke about 40's pmsing. lol Though, my mid thirties was by far the absolute worst. Thankfully the past couple years is has been calming down. :) So hoping it doesn't get too bad again..... eek! :)

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  3. Hi Esmay.Happy Birthday to you! Hope you have a fun time, glad things are picking up.
    Love Jan,xx

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    1. Thank you, Jan, me too. :) Hugs, EsMay

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  4. So glad to read you are doing better, Esmay! Sounds like what you're doing for yourself is helping. Please keep writing for yourself and then for us! :) Glad the Duke helped you calm down. Whew! Happy Birthday!!!

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    1. Thank you. And even if I don't publish, I think I'll share a bit of it... or maybe I'll do a side blog and share it chapter by chapter. Not sure. I do feel I need to step out of my comfort zone and share somehow. *GULP* And I am so glad he helped me too... it could have gotten bad. :(

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  5. Hi EsMay, I'm so glad to read this and that things are picking up.

    Happy Birthday! Hope you have a wonderful day and enjoy your date :) I think the writing is awesome :) go for it!:)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz, me too. It just was so hard last week, and I don't do well being down for long. My birthday hasn't happened yet, but I'll let you know how it goes when it comes by. :) And thank you, I'm scared to death, but, just feel I have to go for it. I might only get one reader who warns the rest of the world to not waste their time, lol, but we'll see. :) Hugs, EsMay

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  6. EsMay, this post sounds like you are doing better. Life is so hard and overwhelming and I understand where you are at. Good luck with the book and if you want an unbiased opinion on your book, let me know. I am a pretty good judge and I am nice about it too. Hope you have a Happy Birthday and that you get to use your new toys.

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    1. Hi, Blondie. :) And thank you, I may just take you up on that offer. I definitely will want people's opinions. :) I'm getting excited, my new toys should be here in time for my birthday, may just have to have fun with them that night. :)

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