Happy HoH Day!

I have felt so good doing things for the Duke so far, and still have a few things left. :)  And he is liking today so far too. :)  If you want to participate, here are some ideas. :)

I'm going to steal a few minutes right now to write my letter to the Duke.

Dear Duke,

I love you.  And that has a deeper meaning for me now than it ever has before.  I always worried that with my past, I would never full be able to feel love, nor feel loved.  You have proved to me that both were possible.  The amount I love you amazes me, the amount I feel your love in return, overwhelms me, and literally makes my heart smile.  Thank you!

One way you make me feel loved, is your intense need now to know how I'm doing.  You don't just assume I'm okay.  You check with me several times a day to make sure I'm okay.  That makes me feel special and important.  It makes me realize that how I am really matters to you, and that if I'm not okay, you're going to do all you can to make sure I end up being okay.

Another way you make me feel loved is how much time you like to spend with me now.  I dont' know if it's because we have more fun together, or I'm in a less dark place and I'm funner to be around, or what, but I love that you like spending time with me again.  And because of that, I have more fun in general, I feel confident with you behind me, and knowing that, I can let go, and just relax.  I laugh more, I smile more, and I feel more happy.  It wasn't your job to make me happy, I have to own that, yet, somehow, you still found a way to do so.  Thank you.

And the last reason I'll share here today is your ownership.  You take your role as my leader and protector very seriously.  I feel so safe when you hold me close, when you lead me through a store, when you sit with me when I am afraid.  And even more so, you protect me from myself.  When I am upset, you tell me to calm down so I won't do or think things I'll regret later.  When I am depressed and want to crawl into my little shell and just wallow there, you demand that I talk to you.  When I am unwell, you tell me I am to sit down and relax and let you help me, and you tell me in a way that brokes no argument.  I just, feel like I am held accountable to you, and that means a lot to me.

Duke, I just, I didn't know I could be this special to someone.  Thinking of it brings tears to my eyes, I'm so overwhelmed, in a good way.  Thank you for seeing the good in me when I was unable to, and then making me believe it as well.  I will never stop being thankful for you.  {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}  I love you so much.

This award is for you, for all that you do, all that I know about, and all that I don't.  Thank you for being such a GREAT HOH to me. :)

Love, Your Sweetie.