Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Thank You, Everyone.

First of all, thank you all for your understanding for needing to change my blog.  The emails you guys sent were so beautiful.  Thank you.

Also, thank you for the love and support that you gave to me in my post this morning when I was so down. 

You are all right, I am so blessed in the Duke.  When he found out, he sent me this email...

"Oh honey I feel so bad for you! I am so sorry that happened to you. I love you honey and can't wait to see you tonight"

He is so sweet, and him not being able to wait to see me, meant so much.  I had a meeting tonight, so he took me out to supper before hand, and gave me some of his dessert since I wasn't having any.  And then he took me to a second hand shop to find some clothes.  I got a pair of nice brown pants, which I really needed as with the weightloss I only fit two pairs of pants now, so now I have three.  LOL  Yes, I will be getting more, but am only trying to get a few pairs right now because I hope to keep losing weight, and don't want to keep updating my whole wardrobe every two months.  Hence also why the second hand shop... but to be honest, that is where I probably would have gone anyway... I don't normally buy clothes new.

Then I went to a church meeting, Children's Team, and asked him to pick me up at 8:30, but we weren't done at 8:30 like we'd hoped, but I still left, I didn't want him turning into an icicle or snowman out there.  But when I got out, he ordered me right back inside and said he would be okay.  When I got back in, they asked why I was back, and I shyly told them I was ordered back inside until we were done.  They all laughed.  I got another laugh when I was leaving AFTER the meeting when I said "I hope I'm allow out in the car now." :)

Then when we got home he wanted to know how I felt the meeting went.  I didn't really want to talk about it, some of it was quite hard to handle.  He told me that I needed to tell him how I felt about it.  I admitted I wasn't sure, and that I wasn't really in the frame of mind to sort it out right now.  He was okay with that, but I can tell with how he said it that once I do figure out how I feel about it all, he'll be telling me to tell him.  And for some reason... that feels kind of good. :)

I love that man SOOOO much.  He is so good to me.  I dreamt for years for this kind of closeness, really thinking I would never come close.  My dream for children may never happen, though I do believe most days it will, but my dream for my marriage DID happen. :)  I hope we keep growing, the Duke still feels so insecure in some areas, but seeing all he's done to grow, I know he'll over come those insecurities too. :)

I hope you all have a wonderful week. :)


  1. Sitting over here with a big smile on my face Es May. So happy to see that things are going a bit better. I have watched both you and your Duke grow and I agree...he will overcome any insecurities. We are all human so there will always be challenges but you two will meet and conquer them all...together! :D


    1. Thank you, Cat. :) I am glad to make you smiled. :) I do hope we meet and conquer them all... I tend to run and hide at first, but I hope I will do better in the future.

  2. Aww that is so sweet about the Duke. I am so happy you have him. Much love and hugs to you Es May. I hope today will be bright.


    1. Thank you, Sara, it did look, much brighter. :)

  3. Es May, just caught up with your last post and this one. So sorry for the heartache you're dealing with at this time. I'm so glad that Duke is leading you with strength and gentleness! I'm looking forward to looking back through your blog to get to know you a bit. Sending my best wishes your way, Clara

    1. Thank you, Clara Baker. :) I am hoping to do the same with your blog, and was very glad to find it earlier today. :)


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