Yes, you read that right. Me, usually submissive to a fault, flat out said NO.... REPEATEDLY. *gulp*
You see, the Duke hasn't been following through. But he does want to do our first boot camp next weekend. PRAY FOR MY BEHIND!!! We bought the book in February, the beginners one, but couldn't do it then because I worked weekends. Then I was sick... and the Duke waited. Now apparently I'm all better and in fine form for bootcamp.
Anyone have any contagious colds or flus they want to send my way!???? :)
So, anyway, I was catching up on blogs yesterday and came across Christina's post about the same book we were looking at. In her post she has a link that goes to her posts about the bootcamp she and Jim did about a year ago. I decided to skim through them, and then saw the schedule they'd hope to keep during it. I then
Soon he demanded that I show it to him. I said no. He told me again. I said no. Then he said "Please?" Okay, so see, I could see I was winning. I said no again. I didn't want my behind tanned more than it needed to be. :( But over the course of the next half hour he kept telling me to send it, but sort of laughing. Since he's had no follow through the last few weeks, and he didn't really seem serious, I brushed it off. I mean, this was all for my own good... right?
So then he told me he wanted to do maintenance. I told him that with all the inconsistency lately, I just didn't feel I could honestly be submissive with him. I felt confused. I was getting mixed signals. Some days I'd have to step up and get things done, and then the next, he'd take over and back again. I told him I needed to know, was I in charge, or was he? I went about my business.
But then five minutes later I'm being forced into the bedroom. Told to sit on the bed while he closes the windows in the apartment. I really did think about running off, but as soon as I opened the door I chickened, so I closed it again and plunked my bottom right back on the bed. He came back and gave one tough spanking session. Even the warm up was hard. He told me that when he tells me something, no matter if he seems serious or not, if he tells me he means it, he means it. So it wasn't a maintenance spanking, it was a full out punishment one.
It actually hurt today when I sat down on a picnic table. :( But it was so worth it. And let me tell you, the man that didn't know how to lecture? SURE got his groove on yesterday! I felt so chastised in the end, so scolded and so disappointed in myself for disappointing him.
I think this was good. Not just for me, but for him. It's the first time he's stepped up when I fought a punishment. Okay, so I haven't fought them up until now. I told him I wanted him to work on this, not that I plan to fight him often, or hope to not at all, but if I do, he has the right to take over. He is always so worried about pushing his way. I told him when he's a parent, there will be times our kids will try to talk him out of punishing them, and with how he is now, they might win. So if this helps him, then I'm glad. :) But my poor bottom in the mean time!