Thursday, November 21, 2013

The Duke And A Baby

I am planning our church Christmas party with another lady in the church.  You may not remember, but in January last year I talked of a newborn I got to hold, and then talked here or there about a little baby girl I got to hold.  Well it's her baby.  She is just the cutest thing, and just loves me.  Yep, I'm so humble. ;)  Well last night the whole family was here so the wife could help plan the party, and the baby kept looking at the Duke.  Now, the Duke likes kids, but babies, well he's a little frightened with them.  This girl is 10 months, but built like she's 6 months.  So when this little girl wanted to be with the Duke, I handed her over for a good half hour, and my heart melted to see the two of them together.  She was just enraptured with him and giggled and laughed to her hearts content, he didn't look too sad either. ;)

I asked him later if he was upset with me for handing her over to him when she was so cutely flirting with him, and he wasn't upset at all.  He was quite happy, and he kept thinking how great it will be when we have our own.

This past few years have been a hard wait, and I really do feel a baby is very close for us, but a friend helped me put the wait in such a great perspective.  A year ago, I was afraid my marriage was ending.  I don't think we would have divorced, though you never know, but I was becoming dead inside with no love left.  What made me think it was okay to bring a child into that?  This year would not have been the year to deal with a high risk pregnancy and learning DD, we needed the time to get our footing in this lifestyle, without the hormones thrown in.  My marriage had to become good first, we had to get on a good page.  Now I can honestly say that if we started a family now, there would be lots of love to pass on, there would be a stable family environment for any children we bring into the world, and I'm also healthier from the changes we've made, and that means a healthier start for any children we have.

Yes, waiting has been hard, but I now see the blessings in having to wait.  Here or there we buy something to prepare for a baby.  Tonight we picked up five 3mos onsies, and four 6mos onsies, and 2 pairs of 3mos pants.  So CUTE!!!

Just another way DD is setting our world to rights.  My next post will be to tell you about the hour long conversation I had with my friend about DD!  It was shocking, an AMAZING. :)

Oh, and about the Bear Jars in my last post.  You all had so many questions I wanted to share. :)  They are quite large jars, the tall ones are 7 1/4 inches tall, the short ones are 6 1/4 inches tall.  Filled, I believe the two little ones would be about 2lb, the large ones about 5lb.  And you can't buy then in stores, they were a promotion back when I was a child, so probably the 80's, they had Kraft Peanut Butter in them, smooth had green lids, crunchy had red, but you can find them at flea markets, second hand stores, vintage stores and online. :)  I will reply to all your comments on the jars hopefully tomorrow, but Saturday at the latest. :)  And Willie, no, I probably wouldn't have asked permission, I would have asked his opinion, but probably not permission, which is amazing to think how far we've come. :)

26 comments:

  1. Aww Es May...the picture you painted of the little girl flirting with the Duke just melted my heart. Sitting here with a big smile on my face for you two...you are in a very good place and I am so happy for you.

    Blessings...
    Cat

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    1. Oh Cat, I'm so glad that I could bring a smile to your face. :) We are in a good place, and I love that we can say that. Yes, things aren't always perfect, but I've realized, that doesn't matter. :) And you helped teach me that. :)

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  2. Awe Es May, I'm just smiling away reading this. As Cat said, that was such a lovely description of the little one flirting with the Duke and him holding her. Just so precious!

    Waiting for a baby of your own must be so hard. I'm so glad you have been able to see the positives in waiting and that you are in such a good place. You and the Duke will be ready when it happens, and it will happen for you.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Thank you, Roz, that really means so much. :) And the Duke with the baby girl, oh, it was so precious. I wish I'd taken a photo! :) {{{HUGS}}}

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  3. Wow I dint think you two could get any cuter lol just loved this post :)
    I can only imagine how hard it must be for you to have to wait for a baby of your own, but your positive thinking is great. Everything will work out and once you hold that baby, you will look at it all and realise it was so worth it :)

    Hugs x

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    1. Hehehe, I love it, Missy, that you think we're cute. :) Makes me feel all warm inside, thank you. :) I believe you are right, the minute I hold our baby, I'll be so happy, that the wait won't matter. :) {{{HUGS}}}

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  4. You are doing what you can. Finding all the positives is so fantastic EsMay. Really that is the best gift you can give yourselves.

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    1. That is true, Willie, I didn't look at it that way, but it is looking at the positives. I am glad my friend showed me, as sadly, I do tend to be the person that sees the cup as half empty. :(

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  5. You sound really happy Es May...thanks for sharing your positive thoughts with us. It's a rather dreary Friday morning here and you just made things a bit brighter:)

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    1. Oh Tess, I'm sorry it was a dreary Friday, but I hope that Saturday has looked better for you. :) But I'm glad that I was able to bring a bit of brightness to you. :) {{{HUGS}}}

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  6. You sound so happy.
    Meredith

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    1. On the whole, Meredith, I think I actually am. :)

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  7. Awww you sound so happy! Having to wait must have been tough, but not you guys are in the right place to make it happen :)

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    1. Thank you, Tasha, I hope that we are, and feel that we are. :) And I am happy, and thankful. :)

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  8. Fingers crossed and know that you will received what's meant to be.

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    1. Thank you, Sunny Girl. I truly believe this is meant to be, and feel God's leading us down a very exciting road. :)

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  9. Love it. Fingers crossed that one day in the (near!) future we get a happy announcement post :)
    Hugs,
    Elle

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    1. Oh Elle, that would be so wonderful, and I can't wait to share that news with you all. :) {{{HUGS}}}

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  10. Oh...so sweet! What a precious moment, to enjoy baby cuddles. I hope we get a happy announcement post, too.

    Thank you for answering about the bear jars. Your posts always make me smile. :)

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    1. Anastasia, what a nice thing to say, thank you. I am very glad my posts make you smile. :) And I hope to bring a happy announcement post to you all soon. Hoping and praying. :) And you're welcome about the bear jars. I love them and could probably talk all day about them, but for everyone's sanity here, I tried to tame it down. lol

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  11. It is kinda fun to look backwards in our lives and see how God at times prepares us for things instead of giving us to them when we want them.

    Love the tone of this post Es May! I love watching my guy with kids too. Melts me.

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    1. Oh Susie, isn't that the truth? Though at times, I wouldn't mind the preparation to take less time, lol. But even in that, I'm learning, and He has never given up on me, thankfully. And I get the melting, I just wanted to sit back and do nothing but say "Awww." :)

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  12. I adore when Jason drops the tough guy exterior and melts around a baby! It's so cute!!

    I love reading about how you guys are doing. It sounds like you're in such a good place. :)

    I've been missing your posts and it seems I accidentally deleted your blog from my roll call (no idea how I did that!) but I'm glad I found you again!

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    1. Oh JGirl, what is it about the men we love going soft around a baby? It's so sweet, and sexy. :) And we are in a good place, better than ever before, and something tells me we're still just at the tip of the iceberg, so exciting. :) Even if we're at the bottom, I'd still be so okay with that. :)

      You know what? I lost a lot of blogs as well, and not sure why. I only realized on LOL day. :( I am glad you found me again too. :)

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  13. Awww love guys and flirty babies!!!

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    1. Oh, I know, chickadee. So, so adorable! :)

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