I am planning our church Christmas party with another lady in the church. You may not remember, but in January last year I talked of a newborn I got to hold, and then talked here or there about a little baby girl I got to hold. Well it's her baby. She is just the cutest thing, and just loves me. Yep, I'm so humble. ;) Well last night the whole family was here so the wife could help plan the party, and the baby kept looking at the Duke. Now, the Duke likes kids, but babies, well he's a little frightened with them. This girl is 10 months, but built like she's 6 months. So when this little girl wanted to be with the Duke, I handed her over for a good half hour, and my heart melted to see the two of them together. She was just enraptured with him and giggled and laughed to her hearts content, he didn't look too sad either. ;)
I asked him later if he was upset with me for handing her over to him when she was so cutely flirting with him, and he wasn't upset at all. He was quite happy, and he kept thinking how great it will be when we have our own.
This past few years have been a hard wait, and I really do feel a baby is very close for us, but a friend helped me put the wait in such a great perspective. A year ago, I was afraid my marriage was ending. I don't think we would have divorced, though you never know, but I was becoming dead inside with no love left. What made me think it was okay to bring a child into that? This year would not have been the year to deal with a high risk pregnancy and learning DD, we needed the time to get our footing in this lifestyle, without the hormones thrown in. My marriage had to become good first, we had to get on a good page. Now I can honestly say that if we started a family now, there would be lots of love to pass on, there would be a stable family environment for any children we bring into the world, and I'm also healthier from the changes we've made, and that means a healthier start for any children we have.
Yes, waiting has been hard, but I now see the blessings in having to wait. Here or there we buy something to prepare for a baby. Tonight we picked up five 3mos onsies, and four 6mos onsies, and 2 pairs of 3mos pants. So CUTE!!!
Just another way DD is setting our world to rights. My next post will be to tell you about the hour long conversation I had with my friend about DD! It was shocking, an AMAZING. :)
Oh, and about the Bear Jars in my last post. You all had so many questions I wanted to share. :) They are quite large jars, the tall ones are 7 1/4 inches tall, the short ones are 6 1/4 inches tall. Filled, I believe the two little ones would be about 2lb, the large ones about 5lb. And you can't buy then in stores, they were a promotion back when I was a child, so probably the 80's, they had Kraft Peanut Butter in them, smooth had green lids, crunchy had red, but you can find them at flea markets, second hand stores, vintage stores and online. :) I will reply to all your comments on the jars hopefully tomorrow, but Saturday at the latest. :) And Willie, no, I probably wouldn't have asked permission, I would have asked his opinion, but probably not permission, which is amazing to think how far we've come. :)