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Sincerely, The Duke and EsMay

Sunday, August 11, 2013

One Good Spanking

I should be sore today.  The fact that I can sit down without the slightest hint of pain is amazing to me.  I upset the Duke yesterday, and boy did my bottom pay for it!

You see, even with all the progress we've been making in being able to see where we are at, and how we feel about things, there still has been a problem with consistency.  So after another stressful week, and if this roof doesn't get fixed soon, I'm just taking an axe to it to seal it's fate, I just felt really distance from the Duke, and also felt emotionally off kilter.  I needed the Duke's attention... but didn't know how to go about getting it without plain out telling him.  With all the headway we've made lately, you think it would have been easy to just walk up to him and say "Hey, Sweetie.  I'm feeling kind of lonely, can I have an hour of your time?"  But it wasn't easy, and so I avoided it.

Well, come Saturday, I was feeling alone, and isolated.  The Duke asked me what was wrong, and I wouldn't tell him.  I was afraid to tell him all that was going through my head because I didn't want him to blame himself, and I didn't want him to feel bad.  Well, let me tell you, I was shocked.  I was turned over, now that's happened before, and spanked.  Okay, so no big deal, he's done that a time or two.  But then when I wouldn't talk, he didn't stop.  He grabbed the pocket paddle and went to town, when I was finally ready to tell him, he kept going.  I think because the first two times he'd stopped and I tried to talk to him, I ended up not saying anything. 

Finally we talked.  We've agree, even on busy nights for the next little while, he's going to give me an hour a night.  I don't get to be around people often with my job, and he's seeing that I need the interaction.  He also has been Mr. Consistent for the past 24 hours.  I wasn't allowed to have chocolate yesterday!!!!!  Okay, yes, I've asked him in the past to help me lose weight, but no chocolate without warning!  I had withdrawal, I needed medivac to come and rescue me, I was a puddle on the floor with very little chance of surviving the night, and still I was denied.  {I'm actually hurt that some of you would think I am making it up, how dire the circumstances were!} ;)

Okay, so I survived, and surprisingly enough, so did my bottom.  Nothing to show for it today, except a very happy heart. :)  I don't ever get over to the ADDS site, so I was surprised on Saturday to hit a link and end up over on that site.  The post that day was about hormones.  OH MY GOODNESS, it made total sense, and it helped the Duke and I see that I'm not as crazy as I sometimes feel.  It also explains why I am so happy after a spanking.  It might change a lot of things for us.  We'll just have to see. :)

So tonight I go to bed happy still from yesterday.  It's amazing how one spanking can set everything to rights. :)

17 comments:

  1. Oh this made me smile :) I'm sorry your bum was sore, but in glad the Duke didn't let up till you talked to him :)

    Oh and about the chocolate, I so do get the desperate situation, I pitty the the person that comes between me and my mars bar :)

    Hugs x

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    1. Missy, I'm so jealous, you have Mars bars?!? Those are my favorite and they don't sell them here anymore.

      Hi, Es May!
      I'm glad Duke didn't let up on you until you started talking. I always tell Rog "nothing" when he asked me what is wrong. I'm not sure why I do this but I know it makes things worse.
      Kim

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    2. Missy, I am glad too. I really needed him to step up like that. And Missy, this is ALLLLL your fault! I have been allowed to have chocolate twice since then, and both times it had to be a MARS bar. lol I blame you. ;) ;) ;)

      R&K, where are you that they have no MARS bars???? Oh, we need to send you a care package ASAP! ;) And it is good that he made me talk, I would have become toxic otherwise. :(

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  2. Hi Es May,

    I'm sorry for your poor bottom, but glad the Duke stepped up and made to talk to him about how you were feeling and that everything was made right in your world again :) Happy you did talk and find a solution.

    A spanking AND no chocolate? I'm not sure which is worse! LoL

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz, you are right, spanking and no chocolate is too big of a challenge! lol I made it through, and have been allowed to have chocolate a couple times since, thank goodness. :) And thank you, I am so glad he made me talk too, I really needed it. {{{HUGS}}}

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  3. Glad the Duke came to the rescue. Good resolutions too.

    No Chocolate. OMG that cruel and unusual punishment. lol Haven't you heard it helps with hormones.

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    1. OH SUNNY, you just became MY BEST FRIEND. I'm so telling that to the Duke! Now to see if he'll believe us. hehehe

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  4. Aw, im sorry you were sore, but sometimes the best thing to show for that is your happy heart. :)

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    1. So true, Kenzie, so very true. :) That happy heart makes it all worth it. :)

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  5. Glad you're feeling better, it's so hard to open up sometimes.

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    1. It is, and I don't know why, I really trust the man, but maybe part of me is unsure. But if he keeps at it, and I keep at it, hopefully it will be easier. :)

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  6. I'm happy for you that the Duke was able to set everything right, even if it temporarily hurt your bottom ;)

    Callie

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    1. Hehehe, thanks Callie. :) Thankfully the bottom stopped hurtin rather quickly, which almost made me sad, in a weird way... I felt like I needed the reminder just a bit longer.

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  7. Hey Es May...Happy the Duke stepped up and was able to set everything straight but no chocolate? Dang...btw, did you know that dark chocolate is actually healthy and good for you?

    Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Thank you, Cat. :) Yeah, but me and dark chocolate.... have a love hate relationship. LOL I love that it's chocolate, and there are a few EXPENSIVE kinds I like, but the cheaper ones I find extremely bitter... now to win the lottery just so that I can enjoy my chocolate. ;)

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  8. I understand how hard it is to open up sometimes, especially when you don't want to feel clingy, but remember communication it key! Sorry for your tush!

    ~Tasha

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    1. You know... that might be it right there, Tasha, I'm so worried about being clingy, or needing him more than he may want. I think part of it too is appearing weak... but he's the one person I should be able to be weak with. I'll have to keep working on that. :)

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