UNDER CONSTRUCTION

We had to take down all our posts for a while. We did not realize that to put them back up would repost them in everyone's feeds. We apologize for that. We also will do our best, as life allows, to get the rest of the posts up as soon as possible. :)

Sincerely, The Duke and EsMay

Sunday, March 03, 2013

I Need To Cry More

Maintenance tonight uncovered a new layer for us I think.  And it took over 200 swats to do so.  I never would have thought it was near that many, but Hubby assures me that he counted.  Wow, am I really that stubborn?

I've realized I need a longer spanking.  I've realized Hubby gives in too fast when I say it hurts, and we decided tonight he will no longer do so.  He started spanking me again, and next time refused to stop when I asked him too.

And we also learned that just because I've started crying, doesn't mean I've cried enough.

I can't believe how much we learned tonight.  My poor bottom!  And I have to sit on it all day at work tomorrow.  *GULP*  lol  Not going to be fun.  I would write more, but I've been ordered to bed, and want to share quickly below, in case you all want a good laugh! ;)


OH, and decided to change this pic...
To this pic because I thought it was bad that the guy wasn't looking down at the girl.  And what did my Hubby say?  "Oh Good, I didn't want to tell you before, but it kind of looked like the girl was trying to give the guy, well, you know."

REALLY?  He thought that and wouldn't tell me and then let everyone see and maybe guess the same????  Okay, reminding myself that choking my husband is no longer an option.  I'm guessing it goes under the heading of "Disrespect" and maybe even "Dangerous"?  LOL

16 comments:

  1. Hi Es May, sounds like you two have just experienced further growth in your relationship. Happy for you! But, your poor butt!

    I know crying is not everything and that not crying doesn't mean the spanking hasn't worked, but I find it so hard to let go usually, more than a trickle anyway, and just want that release sometimes.

    LoL, the pictures. I must be dense because I didn't even think of that with the first picture until you pointed out what your husband had said.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. OH, you're not dense, I too never noticed the picture looked like that. :) Yeah, I don't want to focus on needing to cry during a spanking, but to start crying, and then for him to stop right away, I did find that hard as I felt I was on the edge of release. But we're still learning. :)

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  2. I'm glad you've learned a lot together from this experience. I hope your bottom heals quickly though :(

    Callie

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    1. Well it's feeling better today. Just sensitive, not sore. So that's good. :)

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  3. Well I agree with Nameless. It did look like that. But then again I thought maybe I was just a perv.

    We still haven't worked this spanking thing out yet. Good on you!

    love willie

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    1. I promise, I'm working on a name. I just want it to be the right name. :) Hopefully I'll have it in the next few weeks.

      I am glad we've gotten further into learning about the spankings, but I know we still have learning to go. I hope you and Barney can keep finding your groove too. :) It's hard work, and can be so discouraging, but I have faith they can find what works best. :)

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  4. I see what your husband meant about the first pic, not that I would have thought of that.

    Sorry about your sore bum but happy you have made the progress you wanted.

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    1. LOL Sunnygirl, I never would have thought of it either, at least not for a while. :) My worry is that he wouldn't have pointed it out if I'd left it. Thank you, the bum is all better today and except for one quick pain today, I would never have remembered I was spanked last night. :)

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  5. Yes Es May, please refrain from choking your husband :P

    Happy for your growth, sorry for your bottom.
    Hugs,
    Tricia

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    1. Aw, that takes all the fun out of it. ;) Thank you, and no worries about the bottom, it's all good today. I thought it wouldn't be, but it is. :)

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  6. Hey Es May,

    I did not think of the first pic as the girl doing that either. Not until you pointed it out. But the second one is so much better. Sorry about your rear :( Sounds like some good growth is happening, except for the thought of choking your husband...you might need to work on that one :)

    Hugs

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  7. Yeah, I've told him if he ever notices something like that again, to PLEASE let me know before hand. LOL Hehehee, okay, promise, no choking the husband, and will work on the thoughts as well. ;)

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  8. Lol you had me stitches, when I read it, I had to scroll up to have a better look.
    Ehem I think all of you who thought that have dirty little minds, it never occurred to me, no no no lol but having looked at it again, I must say I sort of understand :)

    Hey great you guys are growing so much.
    Hugs x

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    1. I am just glad that it's fixed now, I don't want to know what would have happened if I hadn't fixed it, because Hubby wasn't going to tell me in case it hurt my feelings after I worked so hard to create it. LOL Everyone would have thought I was a perve sharing that on the blogs. LOL And thank you, I hope we keep growing. :)

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    2. I think for many of us it takes time to learn to let those emotional walls down. It does get easier. I'm glad you feel good about the growth!

      Sara

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    3. I hope it gets easier, my poor bottom pays the price if not. ;) Thank you so much for writing. :)

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