So up until now we have had a couple of things for spanking.
A small wooden spoon - a foot long, if that. It's quite thin, and has seen better days. I've been worrying it will break if we really use it for spanking, so today I took it out of our stash.
A bamboo cane - we only had that because I already had bamboo cane for gardening, it was several feet in length, but I had one piece cut down to about 18 inches. Because this can be a harsh instrument, we researched it, and have only used it once to see at what stength my husband should use should he ever decide to use it. It will only be used for VERY serious infractions.
A bath brush - I got it just before Christmas and my husband has been very pleased with it. It too is made out of bamboo, but because I could find none made with any other type of wood. :( I have to admit, I am not a fan... I could gladly hide this item, or burn it, if fI wasn't afraid he'd pick up something worse.
Well I found a really good, thick, wooden spoon today (picture below along with the other elements I spoke of)... and decided to get it. I knew they made wooden spoons that thick, but I thought I'd have to go to a specialty shop online if I ever wanted to get one. It was also my hope to give my husband another alternative than the dreaded bath brush... but we found out today this can sting just as much... great! (insert unimpressed face here)
|Also showing side view of new spoon above, and back of the bath brush I got a month ago.|
My husband decided to give me a few tries with it, which lead to a few more tries, and then a few tried with a wooden cutting board we have that has a handle to give him an idea of if he'd like to pick up a paddle, and then a few more with his hand. I'd say 20-30 in all, but I couldn't believe how much it helped me!
I could feel the angst literally flowing out of my body. I could feel my ability to be submissive finally coming back. I could feel my husband taking back his right to be in charge again. It was a great talking and cuddling time after. He said I still get my spanking on Monday for speeding the other day once his stitches are out, but that it was good to have this spanking. He also said he's going to go to a sex toy shop here in town and see if he can get a paddle. I have looked at every other store I can think of, and can't find one. We've never gone inside a shop like that, and I don't feel that I myself can go, so he is going to go himself.
The thought doesn't scare me as much as I feel it should to own a paddle! :) That he even wants to do this really touches my heart. That he's seeing how much I need this change means so much to me. That he decided to try out the new spoon today instead of waiting until Monday, was such a blessing! I am sitting here right now, several hours later, with a light heart, and feeling free.
Monday after my spanking for the speeding I may not be feeling the same... but I hope I do. I probably will need a spanking anyway to get over the stress, I have my qualification on Monday with my new job... hopefully I won't be too stressed out by the time I get home, but even if I am, knowing a spanking is on the way should keep me pretty much in check!
I hope you all have a great weekend. I will be staying home from church tomorrow, as my husband wishes. It's a good idea, it's a highly contagious flu, and I can trace it through three people before it got to me, so I really don't want to pass it on to the families that just had babies in the past couple of weeks. I think of day of full rest will be really good. I even slept in today, which felt great after a week of no sleep and being up an hour through out the night last night! I slept 15 minutes past when I'm supposed to get up. I'm going to guess my husband thought I needed the rest and didn't force me to wake up when I over slept. He really is good to me. Oh, and something that shocked me? Last night I went to bed almost two hours early, but then remembered there was something in the house I meant to clean before bed. My husband blocked the doorway to our bedroom, said I was already tipsy from exhaustion, and that I was to get back in bed. After three attempts to get by him saying it needed to be done, I went to bed, and it was so sweet when he pulled the covers up for me and tucked me in. I can't remember the last time someone pulled the covers up for me! It felt great.